On leaving a life behind

As I creep closer to date that my wife leaves, and closer to my departure from the UK, it’s weighed more and more on my mind about how odd it is to leave everything behind. We’ve begun the somewhat sad process of packing everything up for storage, which is a lot like packing up to move house, but instead of leaving out the things you know that you’ll need inside the first few weeks at the new house, you’re instead picking things that you want to use for the next year or two. It all has to fit in a suitcase and carry on, so it’s an interesting experience in minimalism. While I’m enjoying organising everything (cable tidies, storage, camera bags), it’s very difficult to decide what to discard and what to keep.


It’s odd to sit and have breakfast with your parents knowing that after a mere 8 weeks, you won’t see them again for perhaps a year, perhaps more. It’s odd to visit your grandmother, pondering whether or not you’ll see her again after you leave (I’m praying that I do. She’s a gem). It’s odd to see friends; knowing that, for a time, they won’t be the points of happiness that orbit you in your life for a while. Will things be the same when I get back? Will anyone have moved away, much like myself, and be out of reach?  It’s the uncertainty that makes me a little uncomfortable.

But, much like Bilbo in the Hobbit, you’ll not know whether you enjoy adventure or not unless you go out and experience it. I’ve lead a pleasantly comfortable life up until now, and perhaps it’s too comfortable. It’ll be good for me to get out and see the world, and this is my chance.

As for where I’ll be in Japan, we’ll be living in small town called Kanan, located pretty close to Osaka, not a million miles from Kyoto, next to a mountain range and also near Nikko, the old capital. Needless to say, it’s located in a scenic area, which I’m looking to exploit pretty seriously. I’m going to be taking the Fujifilm GFX50s, their first foray in to Medium format with some lenses, a bunch of landscape filters and decent tripod. I should be able to make some decent imagery worthy of a large print, but I guess we’ll see!

I’ll also be taking some DJI odds and ends, so that I can video blog bits and pieces on a YouTube channel. I’m taking the DJI Mavic drone for some rolling hills aerial shots of the mountains (and the coast when I travel to it) and an Osmo for the handheld footage. I’ll be doing a general gear bag breakdown soon, with pictures.

But all of this is to come. At the moment, I’m in a holding pattern, waiting for the adventure to begin. It’s left me a little on edge, kept me very nervous. It’s not an easy thing to do. There are a lot of hard choices to make, and have been made.


It’s going to be a beautiful, scary, and exciting journey.


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